Well this past weekend was the first for me as the new VST for the Requiem game and it was pretty fun.

Had a special guest up and I hope they had fun this wekend too.

Miss some of the players that use to come to the games and HOPE they see that things can change and come back.

Well it has been some time since my last post here. Really had nothing to say.....
No, did not want to say anything is a better way put it.

It is time that the Wolf hunts again. Not for a mate..... the time for that is over.
Those in the know will understand. Those that do not know can still wish to knew.

I have talked to the man in the mirror and we have come to an arrangement that the old me has been dormant to long. Not many knew him, but those that did grew to like him and even depend on him for some things.

Now all I have to say to the quarry that has caught my eye is beware the beast that lurks behind the fanged grin.

Stop playing games with us. If you do not have the balls to come to either of us if not both then stay off my back porch. You do not know how hard it was to come to the descision we did and some have heard only one side of the story. Either mine or hers.

DO NOT TRY TO PIT US AGAINST THE OTHER!

If you are not open enough to ask the other side then we see how much you care for either of us. To say things that are going to get back one day and chance hurting either of us is a folly doomed to blow up in your face.

Chelle and I love eachother and always will. I will ALWAYS be there for her and her for me.

If you can not handle that then find someone else to talk to and stay out of our lives. Wait just stay out period and let us fix things.

We have few that we talk to and telll things to so when they come back we know where to go.

There are some that we want to be in our lives and that we want to talk to and share with. Some we trust and some we are finding out we can not trust at all. Well you have but one chance. Fuck it up and you will see something you may not want to.

I see that only one person can do this lol I thought I might get one too. Well I will try a different one next time. one not so personal.

*hugs*

I want to apologize to all about my attitude and cold feelings this evening. A few things hit me all at once today and I was not ready for them....My defences were down. Got too relaxed I guess.

Well any way. I apologize. I hope it does not happen again. I really wanted to talk to some folks but either I felt I would get them mad or they were busy.

well that is all from the ass-hole loony bin

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Well I know I am not the best in the world at writing and/or putting my thoughts into written word but I do try lol

Love you all for your support....even the ones not on my list.

To all that care to read this.

I am sitting here wondering why I try to do anything at all. Is it the thrill of accomplishment? The thought of happiness? Something I can gain? The pains I will feel? Something I can hold on for one more day? Or an eternity? I sometimes forget who I am and change to what others need. This is not just for one person but for many. The feeling of something done right? I think a bit of all of them. I am not sure what I should do or how. Give me a sign that I am doing something right and that what I do makes a difference. Just a small work of encouragement would do. Something to know that I am being seen as someone that is making an effort. Anyone. The world does not give anything but friends can give advice and help. I may not be the best at it but I can listen. Try me.
Just my perceptions on me. I am not perfect and do not claim it. But I am human and I make mistakes. Please forgive me for them and let us all get on with life instead of living in the past. If I ever do something that offends or hurts please tell me and don't hide it. I can handle it better if I am told.
Please hear me and try to listen. Ask if you do not understand or if there is a something I need to explain.

Thank you for the thoughts and feeling. I do like some of them.

It has been 1 year today since I started at Hyundai Motors in Montgomery. Woot

So I guess that I can be happy about it. But I still feel alittle down. Not really sure why. Seems alot of things are coming up and I do not have the answers to question and I can not do what is needed of me. I will try to do what I can but I am unsure of the future at the moment.

I guess it is ok that I can write it down and let others see that I feel bad sometimes too.

Well enough of the ranting for one day

Night all

lol I know that I am not as computer literate as my wife so any help or comment that you think may help me out please let me know.......

OK folks keep telling me to get this thing and keep up with it. Well that is going to be fun. I do not do these things well. So bear with me and help me out some if you think that is possible.